hmm....well no reason giving this time....its just a post with no reason.....
I am vexed up with life......Have 100's of things to worry about and as you know am very low on wisdom n very irresponsible as a person....well... i will list out my problems here and lemme c how i deal with them in the coming days....
first thing on my mind - fundamentals of financial management - I hate this subject and seriously i don't understand a single thing of whats happening ......how does WACC connect to capital budgeting, capital structure, cost of capital, the diff ratios etc etc and hence am very poor in the case analysis...this is gonna b a hard journey....and I hope I just sail through it somehow....
then come the ppl around me.... everyone is seriously bugging me....look at me - an aspiring HR specialist not able to handle people around herself and struggling with it....eeekk...God save me...!! Esp at times like these I feel I am a dumb head...!!!
I never understood economics and never thought things would affect me ..but they are..Inflation for sure is bothering...am trying to cut down expenses but am not successful....every other day der is a new need and the prices of commodities are damn high....am making rotis and not eating tortillas(both health n wealth reasons)...trying 2 photocopy chapters than buying books etc.,.....done!!
the next thing on my head is the economic downturn...though i do not understand the exact implications of it...i know der are lay -offs everywhere and very fews job out der....omG....wat will I do if i graduate..thank God I still have time...but will things be ok after I graduate...I dont know....lets just wait and watch....The loan is always on my head and I know I have to work...and The grad school is still after me for my first semesters mistake of mechanical engineering.....Kab tak mera peecha karegi yeh mech dept :(.......
Then comes the part which has been and will be always on my mind....the missing home part....i remember mom so much now-a-days..I miss her guidance...I have to handle everything with out her ...I even have to cook twice a week and I really don't enjoy it like many others do....!! Then comes the controversy part...behave like a girl lectures which I had many times from many people ....may be they have a point....
I then sometimes feel...all my friends and people of my age are settling down or have settled down...I have many definitions for being settled .....people either have jobs or are married or are in the process of getting married ad some people to my surprise have children..he he.... other people at least have boy friends and that shows they have someone to constantly support them through their struggle and then at least one big mysterious figure of their life is revealed........wonderful....!! And here I am still struggling to settle down in life....makes me sad sometimes....!!
above all.. I am all the time either busy with something or guilty of something and hence I don't pray...Oh...how I miss my family prayer, my church activities and my relationship with God,..!! I miss life there...
So, what do I conclude...?? Chota sa dimaag and 100 resposiblities....!! and above that nil guidance...!! Hope God helps me out...!! I have at last started realising what life is all about :(
I dont know whether I should be happy or not, but that I will decide when am through and out of all this!!
Luv,
Chandu
I am vexed up with life......Have 100's of things to worry about and as you know am very low on wisdom n very irresponsible as a person....well... i will list out my problems here and lemme c how i deal with them in the coming days....
first thing on my mind - fundamentals of financial management - I hate this subject and seriously i don't understand a single thing of whats happening ......how does WACC connect to capital budgeting, capital structure, cost of capital, the diff ratios etc etc and hence am very poor in the case analysis...this is gonna b a hard journey....and I hope I just sail through it somehow....
then come the ppl around me.... everyone is seriously bugging me....look at me - an aspiring HR specialist not able to handle people around herself and struggling with it....eeekk...God save me...!! Esp at times like these I feel I am a dumb head...!!!
I never understood economics and never thought things would affect me ..but they are..Inflation for sure is bothering...am trying to cut down expenses but am not successful....every other day der is a new need and the prices of commodities are damn high....am making rotis and not eating tortillas(both health n wealth reasons)...trying 2 photocopy chapters than buying books etc.,.....done!!
the next thing on my head is the economic downturn...though i do not understand the exact implications of it...i know der are lay -offs everywhere and very fews job out der....omG....wat will I do if i graduate..thank God I still have time...but will things be ok after I graduate...I dont know....lets just wait and watch....The loan is always on my head and I know I have to work...and The grad school is still after me for my first semesters mistake of mechanical engineering.....Kab tak mera peecha karegi yeh mech dept :(.......
Then comes the part which has been and will be always on my mind....the missing home part....i remember mom so much now-a-days..I miss her guidance...I have to handle everything with out her ...I even have to cook twice a week and I really don't enjoy it like many others do....!! Then comes the controversy part...behave like a girl lectures which I had many times from many people ....may be they have a point....
I then sometimes feel...all my friends and people of my age are settling down or have settled down...I have many definitions for being settled .....people either have jobs or are married or are in the process of getting married ad some people to my surprise have children..he he.... other people at least have boy friends and that shows they have someone to constantly support them through their struggle and then at least one big mysterious figure of their life is revealed........wonderful....!! And here I am still struggling to settle down in life....makes me sad sometimes....!!
above all.. I am all the time either busy with something or guilty of something and hence I don't pray...Oh...how I miss my family prayer, my church activities and my relationship with God,..!! I miss life there...
So, what do I conclude...?? Chota sa dimaag and 100 resposiblities....!! and above that nil guidance...!! Hope God helps me out...!! I have at last started realising what life is all about :(
I dont know whether I should be happy or not, but that I will decide when am through and out of all this!!
Luv,
Chandu
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